Miracles

Posted by Jen on December 11th, 2009 filed in Health, Personal
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Today was a miracle. Kolton and I have been praying every night, sometimes several times a day, for my strength and ability to get through my days in less pain. Today we went to an Arboretum out here, near his college. I didn’t use my cane! I almost always have to walk with a cane. There is no choice. My legs hurt too much, and I have little to no balance. I walked for 2 hours without it! (Over 5,900 steps!) Most of our time was spent in the children’s area. It was huge! I ran in the snow. I climbed through a tunnel on my hands and knees! I ran uphill. I played in a playground, rope bridges and everything… I haven’t been able to do any of these things since pretty much sixth grade, 9 years now. 2 full hours, in the snow, with under 25 degree F weather. I’m in shock… Kolton barely helped me, I was running ahead of him because I was so excited. I’m in pain, yes, and I was the entire time, but not nearly as bad as it usually is. I was on medication, but I almost always am during the winter.

When I ran to the top of the hill, Kolton and I stood there praying for a while, thanking God. I can’t think of anything else that could be the cause of this. It has to be a blessing from God… I have tried so many other things. Just last Sunday I accepted Jesus into my life… Ever since then miracles have been happening in my life. I am so blessed… I never realized how much God loved me… I honestly always thought that God hated me, that he disowned me and forgot about me… I now see how wrong I was…

Kolton even bought me a souvenier so I can remember this miraculous day. He bought two hedgehog puppets and a lollipop made out of pure honey! The hedgehog puppets are so very cute!

After I take a short nap, Kolton and I are going over to his dad’s house to help them decorate the tree and put up lights. I’m so excited! We are going to have a puppet show too!


I need to post more.

Posted by Jen on December 2nd, 2009 filed in Uncategorized
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I keep forgetting I have a blog, haha. I have a reminder note now on my desk, so hopefully I will begin blogging again. Life has been busy, as usual. I finished my fall term (thank god) and passed all of my classes. I only got 1 C, 1 B and the rest A’s! That’s amazing, especially since I’ve been so sick. One of my courses is incomplete, as my professor is letting me take the final once I feel prepared. He wants me to get the grade I deserve, not the grade my medicine will force me to get.

Right now I am taking a course called “Disability Issues in Career Development,” which is super interesting.

I don’t know what else to write right now.


I have been as busy as a bee.

Posted by Jen on October 28th, 2009 filed in Health, Personal, school
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I am so sorry I haven’t posted in a long time! I’ve had a tough time this term at school. I see my neurologist tonight, so I’m hoping it will go better!

The last time I saw my neurologist, he had me wean off of Cymbalta and start Savella. Five days into taking Savella, I had a severe reaction to it. The morning of the first day of the reaction I fell off of my bike and only made it to my first class. My feet, ankles, and legs were extremely swollen to the point where I could not walk. I also became nauseas and had extreme bouts of vertigo. I was told to stop Savella immediately. I ended up missing an entire week of classes because of the reaction!

I have been off of anti-depressants since, minus my 100mg of Doxepin for sleep. It’s been three weeks now. I honestly forgot why I originally went onto anti-depressants. Due to my fibromyalgia, my dopamine levels are lower than they should be. Add that to chronic depression and things get pretty bleak. It’s like the color that I used to see isn’t there like it used to be… I’ve noticed that I’ve been eating carbs and chocolate a lot! I’ve never been an emotional eater EVER, and suddenly whenever I get upset I want chocolate. My counselor says this is because of the dopamine levels dropping and that the carbs and chocolate boost it back up temporary. It’s only then that I see the world like I used to. It’s really different… I’m praying that my doctor puts me on a new anti-depressant tonight. It’s really hard to get through life like this. All I want to do is sleep or lay in bed, just laying there.

Other than dealing with my normal health problems, I have been rather paranoid about H1N1 flu! It has hit my college campus and a few of my friends. Last night I had a fever of 99.4°F and was having some difficulty breathing. I’m a part of the high-risk group for H1N1 because I have asthma and I am under 25. I live in a dorm too, which doesn’t help. My mother wants me to get an H1N1 vaccine next week and I am torn on the decision. A few people on Twitter have told me that it is not suggested for people with FMS, but I have asthma and I work with kindergarteners.

I have a job! It’s a temp job, but still! I have been working as a teacher’s assistant on the weekends. It’s only 8 weeks and $25 a week… All of the money is going to my credit card. Before I got sick last November, I had my credit card total down to $300. However, interest has eaten it up because I’ve only been able to make small payments… Right now I owe like $750. It is such a burden. I’m praying that this will help and that I will be able to find a job next term so I can keep making these payments… I’m really scared that I won’t be able to find work.

That’s a rather basic update on what’s been going on, but hopefully I will be updating much more often now! I am so sorry again!


Long Summer Days…

Posted by Jen on August 19th, 2009 filed in Health
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Things have been extremely stressful in my life recently. I can’t even begin to explain it all. I’ve been flaring for a few days now… Yuck.

My pain levels are so high. I go to see a neurologist this afternoon that was recommended to me by a fibromite. I hope it goes well… It’s so hard to deal with this…

I’m not taking any medicine until after the appointment. Blah.


Lovely Days…

Posted by Jen on August 7th, 2009 filed in Health, Personal
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Hi everyone! I hope that everyone is doing well. Today went well. Kolton and I went to a really nice dinner. The weather is really horrid right now, but I’m feeling okay… I ended up having to take some medicine because of it. Now I’m feeling a lot better that the medicine has kicked in.

The dinner was so very nice tonight. Kolton and I went to a really nice Italian restaurant that I love. It was just amazing.

1 month and 7 days until I start school back up. I’m excited to be going back! Hopefully this year will go much better than last year did.