I have been as busy as a bee.

I am so sorry I haven’t posted in a long time! I’ve had a tough time this term at school. I see my neurologist tonight, so I’m hoping it will go better!

The last time I saw my neurologist, he had me wean off of Cymbalta and start Savella. Five days into taking Savella, I had a severe reaction to it. The morning of the first day of the reaction I fell off of my bike and only made it to my first class. My feet, ankles, and legs were extremely swollen to the point where I could not walk. I also became nauseas and had extreme bouts of vertigo. I was told to stop Savella immediately. I ended up missing an entire week of classes because of the reaction!

I have been off of anti-depressants since, minus my 100mg of Doxepin for sleep. It’s been three weeks now. I honestly forgot why I originally went onto anti-depressants. Due to my fibromyalgia, my dopamine levels are lower than they should be. Add that to chronic depression and things get pretty bleak. It’s like the color that I used to see isn’t there like it used to be… I’ve noticed that I’ve been eating carbs and chocolate a lot! I’ve never been an emotional eater EVER, and suddenly whenever I get upset I want chocolate. My counselor says this is because of the dopamine levels dropping and that the carbs and chocolate boost it back up temporary. It’s only then that I see the world like I used to. It’s really different… I’m praying that my doctor puts me on a new anti-depressant tonight. It’s really hard to get through life like this. All I want to do is sleep or lay in bed, just laying there.

Other than dealing with my normal health problems, I have been rather paranoid about H1N1 flu! It has hit my college campus and a few of my friends. Last night I had a fever of 99.4°F and was having some difficulty breathing. I’m a part of the high-risk group for H1N1 because I have asthma and I am under 25. I live in a dorm too, which doesn’t help. My mother wants me to get an H1N1 vaccine next week and I am torn on the decision. A few people on Twitter have told me that it is not suggested for people with FMS, but I have asthma and I work with kindergarteners.

I have a job! It’s a temp job, but still! I have been working as a teacher’s assistant on the weekends. It’s only 8 weeks and $25 a week… All of the money is going to my credit card. Before I got sick last November, I had my credit card total down to $300. However, interest has eaten it up because I’ve only been able to make small payments… Right now I owe like $750. It is such a burden. I’m praying that this will help and that I will be able to find a job next term so I can keep making these payments… I’m really scared that I won’t be able to find work.

That’s a rather basic update on what’s been going on, but hopefully I will be updating much more often now! I am so sorry again!