I can’t believe this is it…

Six hours until surgery. I’m terrified. Petrified. I was okay until about two hours ago. Kolton was there for the first hour and then he had to leave. I’ve been sitting in my bed just sobbing and crying my eyes out. I’m so scared. I really just need a hug, but I can’t get one. Kolton just sat there holding my hand and listening. I’ve been listening to extremely loud music just to drown out all of my thoughts.

I have to be at the surgery center at 6 AM. Surgery is at 7 AM. I’m so terrified… I can’t stop shaking or crying.