{"id":54,"date":"2009-06-09T17:35:21","date_gmt":"2009-06-09T22:35:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/?p=54"},"modified":"2009-07-12T23:24:03","modified_gmt":"2009-07-13T04:24:03","slug":"54","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/?p=54","title":{"rendered":"Oh no&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify\">Life is bad. My application for a private student loan was denied. I haven&#8217;t been able to work since November and have absolutely no money. I haven&#8217;t been eating much because I have no money and I don&#8217;t want to ask my parents for any&#8230; I know we&#8217;re not that great financially right now. I don&#8217;t know what to do. I&#8217;ve been studying almost all day and I can&#8217;t remember anything. I&#8217;m in so much pain I just want to scream. I had another asthma attack last night. I keep getting sicker and sicker. I just don&#8217;t know what to do anymore&#8230; Tomorrow I move out of my dorm and back home. Two finals tomorrow. One test tonight, that I know I&#8217;m going to fail. I really just want to go far away for a while. I really just need a break before I lose it completely and snap. My surgery is in less than a month. I have my physical for the surgery on Friday.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m in a really bad place right now. I can&#8217;t stop crying or shaking. I just can&#8217;t handle all of this stress and pressure anymore, nor can I continue pretending that everything is okay. I really wish I still had a therapist. I think I&#8217;m in the middle of a breakdown.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Life is bad. My application for a private student loan was denied. I haven&#8217;t been able to work since November and have absolutely no money. I haven&#8217;t been eating much because I have no money and I don&#8217;t want to ask my parents for any&#8230; I know we&#8217;re not that great financially right now. I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,9,6],"tags":[32,31,14,8],"class_list":["post-54","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-health","category-personal","category-school","tag-asthma","tag-financial","tag-stress","tag-surgery"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/54","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=54"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/54\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":88,"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/54\/revisions\/88"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=54"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=54"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.pandtastic.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=54"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}